Yesterday I had a zoom call with René in which we parted ways regarding blank.page. What was most amazing was that the decision was quite sudden, and yet it made a lot of sense to both of us. I was relieved, because underlying our partnership lies a meaningful friendship, and as work is sacred to me and friendship too, I would have expected ripping one from the other in a personal relationship would have yielded some degree of pain, as when you rip out a band-aid from the skin. But it was painless, as with every collaboration with René.

The underlying reason for parting ways could be explained in mundane or in transcending terms. The mundane is that—for the last few months—we’ve been working on a no-code stack, putting together things from web applications via zapier, and this has proved to be tremendously boring work to me. Not because it is easy, but because it does not allow me to focus and flow. This chips away at my well being, and I find myself displaying signs of stress—seborrheic dermatitis of the face, my personal indicator of too much cortisol running on my bloodstream.

The transcending terms, however, are more interesting. There seems to be a new story growing out of the hubris of the past seven years. A newfound sense of meaning. It is difficult to articulate, but it feels as if 2021 will be a very different year. I seem to have matured into a different kind of human being, and my perception of the world has become different.

What is most strange, is that I have seen more people are living the new story, the things that they are chasing are not the things that the world at large chases. It is not about the money, the prestige, the status and the women; even the deep spiritual yearning is not that, it is a sense that the ego is no longer at the driver’s seat, that I wish to stop using I and begin using the word you, because I am everyone.

Es importante escribir en el idioma del lugar en el que vives. Aunque no lo hablaras bien, escribir en el idioma local te conecta con tu entorno. Escribir en un idioma distinto es una abstracción, te quita tus raíces y flotas por ahí. En la nueva historia el movimiento es el de la conexión con otros, el enraizamiento, la presencia.

La nueva historia aún están condensándose. Cada uno la percibe a su manera, y cada uno la tiene que materializar a su manera, porque es individual a cada persona, cada uno tiene su propia versión de la nueva historia. Sólo llega cuando el mundo se desmorona, pero cómo es que tarda tanto en materalizarse? porque para dar entrada hay que permitir que los nafs, los estados del ego, evolucionen a puntos más altos.

Dejar de escribir por impresionar, dejar de hacer por complacer a otros, renunciar a los frutos de la labor de uno, el mundo cuidará de ti si atiendes a tu llamado. Eso es, el llamado te obliga a dejar atrás todo lo que no es esencial para tu desarrollo, trabaja con todo tu ser, pero no te obligues a hacer nada, fluye.

Estos días, antes de que llegue 2021, la labor será encontrar de qué se trata esta nueva historia, materializarla, escribir acerca de ella. El mundo me dará las indicaciones necesarias.