State: unaltered

Last evening I had promised dinner to Óscar, so I head to his home and found him in the company of his friend, Moy. I told Óscar I would be back with supper, and so I made four hamburgers and took them to his house in a tray.

When I arrived, the tarot had been set on the table. Óscar was expecting to play the tarot, but I was hungry and I asked the table to be cleared (note to self: I should have accommodated a leisurely reading during dinner, instead of gobbling up our hamburgers as fast as we could, but I guess we were all hungry.

I had put forth the intention this month of Vibrate with the energy that people present to you, and, this time this vibration was challenged.

Moy told me he had seen the interior of my house, and saw that I had “some books” which he ascribed to esoterism. I said yes, these are books on esoterism, but esoterism is ultimately about self-knowledge because what you perceive in the external world is really about yourself.

For example, if the cards would spell out the “destruction of the world”, it would surely predict the destruction of the world that the person lives in, not the world at large. When one “sees” things, when one “hears” things, and when one communicates with the “spirit world”, one is communicating with the inner psychology manifested in the material world. It manifests in the material world because we project the mind or the spirit unto the material world.

I explained this to Moy, to which he answered some vague words, which I recognized as the post-modernist trap: “you believe what you believe, and I believe what I believe” and I said “you are right, we should have begun on the opposite side of the discussion, what do you believe about the esoteric?”.

And then they showered me with an hour of explanations on paranormal phenomena. I was desperate for moments, wanting out of the conversation, but ultimately the experiment is to Vibrate with the energy that people present to you and I made an effort in remaining present, because as people speak to you about sacrifices and the devil and witchcraft it is difficult for the mind to remain where the conversation is. Instead, it will ceaselessly repeat “what am I doing here with these bozos”.

I was instructed on the diet of witches (baby human flesh or blood), on the enslaved relationship gnomes have with witches, of the different kinds of sacrifices satanic sects perform on different kinds of animal and human victims.

In the end, I think exploring instead of rejecting this worldview with them was correct, because if the esoteric is the means for inner knowledge, then hearing the esoteric ravings of another human being is also a window into the person’s psyche. The devils and angels that this person talks about are not devils and angels in the material world, they are components of his own psyche projected unto the material world, and so it is “real” in a psychological sense.