Today I hosted lunch with my father and his wife. It seems I don’t have much to reflect on, except that when they left I was exhausted and wasted two or three hours “catching up” on social media. It had been a while since I indulged in this kind of leisure, and I didn’t feel any remorse, but the feeling of being bombarded by things completely irrelevant to my life left me in a state of… I would call it indirected thought.

I will recall what I saw: a video of Wilt Chamberlain speaking about the joys of solitude, I resonated. A video of Teal Swan speaking about gaslighting, I saw myself being an unconscious gaslighter. That is what I can recall from a two hour mindless browsing.