I’ve spent most of the day thinking about Marina’s case. I was at the gym and I tried focusing on my breath, but my attention was insisting on resolving the issue. I think I have resolved it, and I will write it down in order to process what this means.

People who most need help are those who pretend nothing is happening to them. That they are tough, that they can handle whatever life throws at them. This is an admirable quality and good adaptation to a life full of misfortune, but underneath the thoughness, underneath the crust flickers a flame, which everyone can see it if they pay attention.

I have come to understand Marina’s plight from an objective perspective: despite living with a mentally challenged individual and suffering through an abusive relationship, passing difficult privations, she has to put up with it because she has no other way.

Spiritual knowledge says not to carry other people. What I need to find out, and for this I must interview her, she complains about her living situation, but she has never spoken about other plans. If she is as trapped as I think she is, I will show her a way. I saw it clearly and it is relatively simple to execute, but I must not write about it until it is done.